Lovely Eco-System

For all sudden, I stunt, staring at the poor conversation I fail to perform perfectly with all hope abandon. I sit on my chair, uncomfortably, wondering “ What I did to deserve such unpleasant act of ignorance and cold cruel manners?” At that very moment, time seem to have stop, probably for me time went back searching for the link to every door the world possesses. A sudden strike fell hard into me. I regain my consciousness again with every piece of puzzle solve but smash into pieces again. I felt down, very unemotional like a mask was just and finally taken off from me. I felt hell, burning life-living hell. Indescribable feeling flow in my mind. Rebel and hungry to death. I hold my heavy tears as thought they are heavier then even my “feel”. No one intrust me, no one care about me, no one felt for me, no one will know me.An army man live for nothing but die for something, we lovers live for reason, die for someone. At the end, I realize, “Friends, are just and only a tool for your next goal.”

Ball to VICTORY.

I throw my hand up shading my eyes from the sun. The court was blur with heat as i look over the net to my opponent. I took the ball on my racket I’m holding, preparing to serve for the match. Sound of ball bouncing I created made everyone nervous. I throw the ball up high with my head and racket up and knees bent. Cloud blow, Sun shine, the ball spin a little before my racket contact it with speed and power. My whole body flew up and the ball flew over the net. Game, set, match. We close the match up with eight games to two. My partner and I walk gladly with both our chest and head held high to the net while the opponents walk dragging their shoes to the ground. We shake and congratulate. Smoothly, my partner and I sit down together with all crowded people around us.

Home Sweet Home

It’s finally home, where a day in “another home” ended with a wink of an eye. Bag, shoes, water tumbler and a wet shirt which I’m still wearing were all lifted up to my room for further arrangement. Door is still clacking, room is still gloomy, air is still tiny, and I am still wondering, the day I had today. I have my ipod on the speakers before my bath. Music fills the room. Water rush out from the shower as I turn on the tap. I wet myself into the showering water. Within seconds the room was fill with water vapour. The feeling strike me like a baseball bat hit into my heart. I lowered my head facing the ground while closing eyes. Neither music nor water i felt. My mouth open to take a deep breath with still my eyes shut. My legs were numb as I tumble down to the floor with my knees hitting it and my forehead slamming into the floor. At that very moment I felt like bursting all my tears and shouting all my heart out or having a pistol pointing at my brain and pull the trigger, but I didn’t. It took me few minutes to bring me back up. I turn on the tap of the sink to fill it up while I wipe off the fog on the mirror. Both shower and sink water were flowing. My mind rebel with questions. I take a good look at myself in the mirror and smile cheerfully. Without thoughts I punch myself in the face. It was so hard that I can’t feel my cheek, but still I smile with tears and nosebleed to myself in the mirror. My face was thrown into the sink full of water. Bubbles were popping as I yell out my heart. I manage to put myself together and walk out of the bathroom with a smile on my face. I glimpse over to the clock then I realize, I’ve been in there for more than one hours.

A "life" I lived (morning)

A sudden chill I felt down into my spine, trigger my whole body to be unconscious. I woke up feeling dizzy as though knowledge pass through me in a blink of an eye. I flick off the tears I cry for the night that I can't pass out. I can't keep my breath where unlimited pointless facts came across me and there is nothing I can do about it. I took my very 1st step of the day and still I found it difficult to stand with my eyes still blank. Soon I reached for my shower. As the water flow, water vapor was created. Within a minute the room filled with mist. My lungs was solid and gasping for air like a boulder crash against my chest. I glance, breathlessly at the sky through the little tiny window my bathroom had while having myself "water". I brush my teeth while I wiped off the fog on the mirror. Staring at the mirror mumbling the song heard last night with my tooth brush inside my mouth. I had my cloths on and open up the curtain I close last night. Shinny and bright light blinded my eyes again. Life filled my room with color. At last, I walked up to the door, open up the barrier between two alternate dimension. An immortal soul filled me in with energy as I turned my head back and have one last good look at the cold and shabby room that turn bright into a room of life.